Forest Wanderer & I start the journey by walking through the forest at night. It's peaceful. The stars are out. We walk in silence. My mind is going 1000 miles an hour - is it possible I could un-fuse, and go back to the people I was before? If it is possible, is it something..
This is a note to my headmates, as we seem to be moving more and more internal stuff to the blog as opposed to email, which is fine, I guess. It's true that the last month I've been floundering a bit in who I am, but I didn't expect how.... needed? popular? Saoirse was. First..
Hi everyone, its Sharon again. Jes was supposed to work some this holiday weekend, but that didn't happen. Oops. I don't know what's going on in Jes-land the past few days, while I've been out a lot. I hope they're OK. I've posted on a couple of DID groups that didn't seem toxic, asking how..
I've met Jes now, and while I can see Saoirse-ness there, it isn't the same. I broke down into hard sobs tonight because I miss Saoirse. Yeah, it surprised me too. So here is a final letter to Saoirse, to say goodbye. "Hey, asshat. How go the goat sacrifices? I put on some of your..
Hey all, its Sharon & Jes. This is our first real co-conscious time since Jes fused last month. So, in celebration, we're having a disagreement. <laugh> No, Jes took a shower, that's not the disagreement. There are two days coming up - System Pride Day on February 23 and DID Awareness Day, March 5. We're..
Back in one of the first posts on this blog, Saoirse explained how they usually did bathroom duties, while Janet was programmed to be pretty oblivious to those body-needs. Well, now that Saoirse and Janet are one, the bathroom signals aren't really making it through until the VERY last minute. That's putting pressure (of a..
I turned 25 days old today! <grin> Oh, and 47 years old yesterday. 25 sounds better. I'm still pretty spacey, although I've put in a ton of work over the last few days. Of all my ways of coping, I guess I like the workaholic solution the best. Saoirse would be proud. The truth is,..
Yesterday my boss called me at home, and my mom came over to check on me, because I wasn't responding to texts/messages like usual, because I was asleep. Tuesday night I missed the first 40 minutes of therapy, because I was asleep. Just tired? No. I have a Fast-Forward button on life that gets hit..
The biggest positive of this week? Getting my own oxygen concentrator. I feel so much better on supplemental oxygen. Hooray for that. The biggest downer of the week? It seems my #1 allergy is to cat dander. :-( I'm not sure what I'm going to do about that. Maybe try allergy meds? That's a little..
I'm in a really weird space tonight. I had an absolutely exhausting afternoon with medical stuff, and then came home and proceeded to watch music videos on YouTube for hours and hours. My musical taste is certainly… different. Mostly I've been jamming out to 80s bands. I don't know why the mid-late 80s/early 90s keep..