OK, so I’m out right now, and I’m doing the whole “I’m Janet” thing around my Mom. I bet she doesn’t notice. Actually, I’m kind of me. You know how Saoirse and Janet wrote about driving the car? Well, sometimes when I’m out, FW floats in spirit form above and behind me in the inner world…. and we’re co-conscious to a degree. We’re not as mixed up together as Janet & Saoirse get, but we’re just kind of aware of each other, and I can hear FW’s voice in my head.
Since FW generally knows whats going on, that’s where I get my news on what’s been happening while I’ve been away. I don’t get every detail, by any stretch of the imagination, but I get enough to not totally be blindsided. And yes, I “hear” it. It’s a conversation, not a memory. It’s the difference between going someplace yourself, and having a friend tell you about their trip.
But, its also a little weird, because I grow older around FW. I do what’s called age-sliding. There’s a younger me and an older me. Both me. Both share the same memories. But I change. I really don’t understand it, but I’m not the only age-slider. One of the kiddos does it too. Mystery! Early this morning when I was out for a short bit, I was younger me. Now I’m older me. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I’m sure there’s some deep reason for it, but I don’t know what it is. I just accept it and move on.
Annnyway, I wrote a post on the forum this morning that the computer ate. I wrote another one a bit ago, but it didn’t cover what I want to cover here. You may have noticed that we said switching is “usually involuntary”. Now, that implies that sometimes we can do it when we feel like it, doesn’t it? How does that work?
Let’s say its the start of a normal Monday – Friday work day, and I’m out. Well, while I have gone to work a few times, I don’t like to do it. Look, I’m the girl who couldn’t get into her email this morning, and who somehow lost a lost Forum post she had typed out. Do you REALLY think I should be messing with millions of dollars worth of gear? Me either. So, what to do, what to do.
It’s actually pretty easy to get Saoirse to come out and work. That’s what Saoirse does. So, I sit down at the desk. I get the work computer set up and on. I may open Saoirse’s work email program. And, usually, I put on some of Saoirse’s music to sacrifice goats to. Then I just kind of space out and “let go”. Eventually, Saoirse will come out, and I’ll go home to my house in the inner world.
Now, let’s say a kiddo is out and having a flashback or a nightmare, or something bad is going down. How do I force my way out? Well, I focus my entire mind, my entire will, on one thing – moving the body’s left hand index finger just the tiniest bit. I get to the point where I can wiggle it, and then move on to a second finger… and a third… I don’t try to change what’s going on yet, I just focus all my thoughts on moving those fingers, more and more. Eventually, I get to the point I have control of our left hand. Then our lower left arm. It’s pretty much game over for whoever is out by then. <grin> I’ve snuck into control while they weren’t watching. I do a similar thing to ground myself when I start to feel spacey.
Others in the system have learned the same trick, but may use different fingers or hands. So, if you see our fingers twitching or moving back and forth a lot, we’re probably either a) trying to force a switch to happen or b) fighting a switch by grounding ourselves.
This is kind of me and FW: