I Have No Idea What I’m Doing

I'm in a really weird space tonight. I had an absolutely exhausting afternoon with medical stuff, and then came home and proceeded to watch music videos on YouTube for hours and hours. My musical taste is certainly… different. Mostly I've been jamming out to 80s bands. I don't know why the mid-late 80s/early 90s keep..

Mixed Paint & New Readers?

Hi, its Jes again. I've found that I have been moving between "Saoirse-ish" and "Janet-ish", but they are both me. Janet & Saoirse aren't as distinct as they once were - that's what that picture is trying to symbolize. Things aren't one solid, uniform color through and through, but things have been stirred? I'm still..

Welcome Jes!

I have yet to directly meet Jes, but I wanted to throw a welcome note out here. :-) Konnichiwa! I'm wondering what this all means for the rest of us, of course. I'm guessing that Jes will be the new host of the system?? I talked to FW and we decided that Saoirse's council seat..

Still Here

Well, I'm still here, still figuring myself out. The main thing that I've done is sleep! But I seem to still function on night shift hours. Some things, it seems, never change. I'm having a weird night with music. Stuff my music player recommends used to usually hit the spot, but tonight I keep having..

A New Chapter Begins

Hi, I'm Jes. I'm still debating if I want to add another s. J, E and S are actually the initials I've had since birth. There is also a J for Janet, an S for Saoirse, and an E for a letter both names shared. Oh, I'll still answer to Janet I suppose, being the..


I'm going to be starting on night-time oxygen Soon(tm) - the order from the doctor has gone out. My CPAP isn't enough and my O2 levels fall really low when I sleep. In the waking hours I can puff and pant to add oxygen, but I guess not when I'm asleep. in other words, my..

Open Journal…

Janet: OK, what the hell is going on tonight. First a flood of memories, then I kind of check out for a bit, and the living room is slightly rearranged when I come back to the surface? Um, ok, dissociation is fun. Saoirse: It was me moving the recliners around, trying to figure out where..


Hi. It's Janet. Janet Janet, not some other version pretending to be me. The real deal, and all that. I'm in a really weird space tonight. Normally this would be a therapy night, but Therapy Guru is down with COVID, so we rescheduled. Whether or not I'll be around for the rescheduled visit, who knows?..