Nope, I'm not writing this from the afterlife. I'm just no longer in mixed episode hell. Yay. Of course, that means I've mostly dived into depression, but hey, I'll take it? At least I've been able to sleep. Also, I'm off the evil Latuda and back on the not-quite-as-evil Zyprexa. Actually, if Zyprexa didn't make..
Most of the time, if I'm having trouble with being bipolar, its pretty much straight depression. I crawl into myself and sleep 20 hours a day, and eventually get through it. Other times I go hypo-manic, which is mania-lite. Diet Mania? I operate on 2-3 hours of sleep a night, and am usually highly productive,..
In short, I'm kind of fucked. I've been diagnosed with severe COPD, and WHO Group 3 Pulmonary Hypertension. The five year survival rate for Group 3 PH is too depressing to post, but let's just say its worse than normal PH, which wasn't all that wonderful to begin with. The good news (?) is that..
God is a bit of a charged topic around some in the T-E-C system, but since Saoirse brought it up already, and because I was face to face with it today, I thought I'd say my piece. Today I prayed internally very, very hard for a friend of mine who went into the hospital tonight...
Oh, what a rollercoaster of emotion the last couple of weeks have been. It's also a little freaky, because I had a premonition in 2020 that I was going to die this year. So, um, yeah the possibility didn't come as a complete shock in an odd sort of way. BUT, I'm not going down..
Why refer to ourselves as The Electric Circus? Um, 'cause we needed a name that represented all of us, even if we only ever used it amongst ourselves? For me, I kind of think of it like Monty Python's Flying Circus. For one of my kiddos, who wants to be a "lectrician" when he grows..
THIS. This is what I needed to see two weeks ago. She's right, googling PH is fucking scary, but a bit of Hope is exactly what I needed. https://youtu.be/Wq36QV3U8wg
This is one of the best quick descriptions of PH that I've found. Next week is Medical Test Week (tm), as I'll get to go to downtown Seattle on 3 different days to be poked and prodded. I have a ride, because I'm not sure how stoned I'll be due to the new psych med...
It's day two of the new psychiatric med…. and I'm stoned. Not as stoned as day one, but definitely a space cadet. So, what to post on the blog? Well, I had thought of putting up the old circa-2005 Electric Circus site, or at least my part of it, as a Blast From the Past..
Yes, I'm the one who put up a fuss about the journalling post and had it pulled. We journal or write emails to each other a lot, and yes, it would be cool for you all to see that in action. Sometimes we're co-conscious in real time, sometimes there is a time delay of hours,..